She was recently spotted new scenes for her show with her sister in Miami, where the girls hung out pool side and drank champagne, while reflecting on her split.
The couple had been due to get married earlier this month, but called off their vows when Nikki realised she didn’t want to give up her dream of having a baby, while John wouldn’t budge on not wanting to have one.
Speaking of the day after their split, she said: ‘I feel such a huge piece is just missing from me. It was just weird. First morning in six years not to talk to him, you know?’ And her sister Brie added: ‘I mean, you guys were like married … I just don’t want him to be lonely. And I don’t want him to regret not being a dad.
And that’s what makes me sad ’cause John feels like a brother and I hate thinking in my head that he’s gonna be alone.
You and I are such hard workers and there’s times there’s been zero payoff, but when you have a baby, even if Birdie wakes me up five times in one night, the way she holds me, the way she smells, it’s like, you don’t care. I want you to feel that.’
Speaking in another preview clip of Total Bellas, she said: ‘He told me, he sent me this text last night and he goes, “The day you become a mom and look at your baby, I’m expecting to get the first thank you text.” But it’s like, I wanted him to be the father of my kids.”
Last week a clip revealed the moment Nikki realised they should call off the wedding – while she was trying on wedding dresses.
She said: ‘For me it’s like “Ok let’s get this over quick”‘, she said in a VT. ‘I feel like I’m forcing smiles.’ She added: ‘It’s crazy because I’m not that person, I’ve been looking forward to this forever.’
There have been rumours the pair are on the verge of getting back together, as they’ve since been spotted going for coffee, with a friend claiming they are ‘basically back together.’
A source lifted the lid on all the drama, and told People magazine: ‘They’re basically back together.
This was never really about ending their relationship – it was about calling off a wedding because something didn’t feel right. ‘It was a wedding that was entered into under false pretenses.’